I'm not special, but pitty party anyway!!!!

So my van is done. Not sure what is wrong but it is not running in a manner which is safe. We were hoping to be able to replace it with a tax refund but unfortunately we are going to owe taxes this year. First time ever. Not sure what our plan is at this point because I can't add new daycare kids without buying a car but we can't buy a new car without replacing the kids I lost. Gotta love them double edged swords. I told Chris I should get an additional job besides the daycare but he says that he won't allow that because we would not see each other enough. I understand that and I am not dying to get a new job, but I am trying to be realistic. If this were all happening in April, it might be doable. Sorry to be dumping all this on everyone but I can't function without getting this off my chest and Chris is convinced we will be able to fix the van for $1000. And my gut is telling me it is going to be more. Not that it matters either way. I am feeling really kicked in the teeth right now.

We had hoped that 2010 was going to be a better year and it is off to a bad start. I am sure we will figure it out, but not sure exactly how. Chris has talked about borrowing out his 401 K and trying to pay cash for a vehicle but at the same time that means we lose $440 a month income (basically the car payment)

I know I am not special and that everyone has challenges. I guess in spite of our best efforts, we are still living beyond our means. And unfortunately I'm not sure where to trim. I find it funny that when we are being responsible and careful, and not indulging whims that we seem to do worse. Oh well off to finish taxes and see if I can at least make them break even. I found a couple of more receipts and I am going to clean out a couple of boxes and see if there are any I have missed.

I know that everyone else has so much going on but I feel better just getting it out. And if I didn't tell you what was going on, you'd feel left out! And now I am going to referee a fight between 4 year olds, life is glamorous.